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Moving and emotional states

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Within last two weeks, including in it chanukah, a lot happened. I can’t really write about it but let me say it was intense, and not only in sence of depth of feelings but also in sence of steps which I’ve made. Meaning not only I felt a lot staying in one place but I’ve also moved on.

As I like psyhology I like side stream applied psyhology like NLP also. On one day I was in a particular, very intense, state. I remembered that in NLP understanding and managing states is important and in line with that I wanted to know what this state was about and hot to change it to happier one. I opened the NLP book and red the chapter about it. Than according to what I’ve red I wrote down bodly and mental feeling of that state like shalow slow breathing on the chest level and so on. Than I started breatching quicker and deeper and did other changes to adjust to more happy state. Than I walked to super in yeshivah. This changing state worked to the extend that few people asked me wether I smok*d something.

Hope to move on more.

Netscape is not away

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After I came back to Poland my computer was working slowly so after some time I decided to reinstall windows. I’ve copied important things from C disk to D disk and put the xp installation disk in the dvd drive, than I’ve formatted the C disk and then I’ve run the installer.

Last years I’ve used Firefox, and before that Netscape. I’ve switched to Firefox because it was installed on the computers that I was using and it was related to Netscape. But this time when I was planing on installing a browser I said to myself ‘No, install Netscape, the older brother of Firefox whom you used so much in the past’.

Right after installing Windows from scratch I opened home.netscape.com in IE. First thing to surprise me was that it redirected me to netscape.aol.com. Even if AOL bought Netscape and it may have happened long time ago why would they change the address now? What is the change for?

Than I looked for link saying Netscape browser and I’ve found it and clinked it. I’ve scrolled the page down and there was option of downloading 4 different applications. I didn’t see Netscape over there…

I used internet for the first time when I was about 12 and I was a Virtua Fighter fan. Most probably I did it with IE. But it was just once or twice when internet was practically  unknown. It was 96 or 97. Year later I started to use the web more in a Jewish computer center. People in charge were Netscape inclined. I’ve picked up on this quickly and became a big Netscape supporter. Throughout the years  I’ve mostly used Netscape and over time my emotional connection with the program grew.

At that point (beginning of 4) Netscape was subjectively better. It was more secure and showed more of HTML, JavaScript and so on. I also preferred the way it looked and some things in IE annoyed me.

Till 1997 Netscape won having at certain point close to 90% of the market. Than the browser war started and eventually Netscape lost. Microsoft was giving IE with every Windows and integrated it as part of the system, so most people just stayed with that. Netscape didn’t change so much within the version 4 and between version 4 and 6 (5 was skipped) more than 3 years passed and at certain point IE was more functional than Netscape. Also AOL made a mistakes and at certain point added a lot of external programs to Netscape installer. All that resulted in that new people used IE and a lot of old Netscape users switched. It ended up that only hardcore users stayed with Netscape. So did I.

Announcement on the AOL website said:

Official support ended on March 1st, 2008.
Given AOL’s current business focus and the success the Mozilla Foundation has had in developing critically-acclaimed products, we feel it’s the right time to end development of Netscape branded software. Read the history page for more details about this decision.

That what it said. They don’t care that the program existed for close to 14 years, people grew up with it, changed with it and matured with it. Like me, I’ve changed completely during this time. But taking into account their business plan they don’t care. I felt sadness and injustice.

What could I do? I could install Netscape theme for my Firefox.

So I did. At last that way Nescape will stay alive. And I’ve singned two petitions.

http://www.petitiononline.com/netscape/petition.html

http://www.petitiononline.com/saveNS/petition.html

4 days of birthday

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Today is my american, polish or english birthday, I would call it “birthday according to the sun”. On shabbos, first of Av is my Jewish, moon (months) and solar (years) bithday. So I established both days and the ones in beetwen for celebration.

So it’s 4 day bithday.

Do I need Poland?

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Every time before I come to Poland I’m look forwards towards it. Poland is a place where I grew up I still have some connection with it.

There are some things in Poland that turn me off though. And there are things that Poland is missing, meaning there are things that actively disturb me and things that just are not there.

Belonging to the first group are polish low self esteem voices. It’s actualy a very serious thing because it makes me listening to a lot of people just annoying.

Belonging to the second is lack of young, cool people with energy, especially Americans like there are in my yeshivah.

Worth mentioning that my whole social life is very limited. I could simplify the last to points as being lonely.

So even though I need to pop in to poland from time to time i know it’s not a place for me.

Intensity of the flight and arrival in Warsaw.

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Monday night I left Jerusalem for the airport. Except for few things (security guy was starting to get suspicious after I wasn’t sure how to answer him some questions and than I’ve forgot my suitcase when waiting by the Lufthansa office, later to find it, and that another member of airport personnel was shouting at me when I was the last person to enter the plane - when he got upset he asked me whether I come late to the synagogue, I preferred not to answer :)) everything went smooth and after 3 hours 40 minutes flight I arrived at Frideric Chopin airport. At ‘home’ I’ve arrived about 10 o’clock in the morning.

Except of one other person the flight was completely not religious made of both Polish and Israelis. Interesting that a lot of Polish fly to Israel and vice versa. I’ve overheard two Israelis talking and one was explaining to the other that he was buying some property near Warsaw.

Sometimes during my journeys I meet somebody whom I know. Last year I’ve meet next building neighbor of my previous flat. He works at the Jewish Theater and he came to the Holy Land for the Bar Mitzvah of his nephew. I’ve than realized that Jews sometimes may live in such a close proximity, even though there is so little of them in Poland.

I left the plane through the new terminal. The arrival terminal has a year or so but the departure terminal is really fresh. It looks good but but plain and not impressing, more of late 20th century style than 21th. They should have designed it better, airport makes the first impression of the country.

Psyhoanalisis of polish people comming.

What’s happening?

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I’m happy recently (I’m not implying that i wasn’t before).

I don’t know how to describe it? I feel just grate and everything is well, blessed God.

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Me lately

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I’m learning… now yevamos.

The zman started about a week ago. i’m happy of my learning.

Besides i’m reading a book ‘crooked thinking’ and a book called ‘jewish meditation’.

About two weeks ago i started learning how to play piano and two weeks earlier than that i tried with the guitar. I will stay with piano for now. Hope in some time i will be able to play Chopin pieces.

Thinking about God from time to time.

Going, i think, in the right direction.

still warsaw…

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i am still in warsaw?

do i like such state of affairs?

not really.

hopefully will be coming in few days.

i want to be back in yeshivah.

see you

first av

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first av… is my birthday.

today is my birthday…

sitting here in warsaw… no, not in the warsaw getto.

till year ago my birthday was deep (i would think a lot) and sort of sad. i was never satisfied with myself and it would externalise into feelings on this day.

when i came to midrash shmuel i learned to be more possitive and my birthday is not sad any more… it’s happy…

btw possitivity is for sure good and proper. once rosh yeshivah spoke after maariv, reading out of mesilas yeshorim. it said that person should check what he is doing because maybe his whole path is wrong. i thought it’s negative. you will concentrate on what you are doing wrong. when rosh was leaving after that i asked him on the way ‘isn’t it negative?’, he said ‘psyhology can not stand mesilas yeshorim’ and he went on with such talk… but he finished ‘when person finds that he is soing particular thing wrong, he should look at it as a opportunity to grow’ and also ‘person should be allways possitive’. i repeat i heard rosh saying to me straight ‘person should be allways possitive’. some people claim rosh is against possitivity. they are VERY WRONG.

if somebody is negative in certain way it stops him from growing.

my cell in poland is +48 507 407 451 .