first av… is my birthday.
today is my birthday…
sitting here in warsaw… no, not in the warsaw getto.
till year ago my birthday was deep (i would think a lot) and sort of sad. i was never satisfied with myself and it would externalise into feelings on this day.
when i came to midrash shmuel i learned to be more possitive and my birthday is not sad any more… it’s happy…
btw possitivity is for sure good and proper. once rosh yeshivah spoke after maariv, reading out of mesilas yeshorim. it said that person should check what he is doing because maybe his whole path is wrong. i thought it’s negative. you will concentrate on what you are doing wrong. when rosh was leaving after that i asked him on the way ‘isn’t it negative?’, he said ‘psyhology can not stand mesilas yeshorim’ and he went on with such talk… but he finished ‘when person finds that he is soing particular thing wrong, he should look at it as a opportunity to grow’ and also ‘person should be allways possitive’. i repeat i heard rosh saying to me straight ‘person should be allways possitive’. some people claim rosh is against possitivity. they are VERY WRONG.
if somebody is negative in certain way it stops him from growing.
my cell in poland is +48 507 407 451 .
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