Intense Sukkos no. 2

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Shabbos night I went to an important and influencial guy from London who is somehow connected to the yeshivah. An allways on top, controling type of person, probably Dynamic Aggressive. He has something which I call ‘high self esteem humor’ and I can definitly relate to that. I think we like each other. Throughout the meal I was trying to understeand him psychologicaly. Threre were bottles of expensive alcohol. MoMo was entertaining the meal also.

Shabbos lunch I went to Avi Ma, the small fighter. I was crazy, I was talking all the time - I was very extroverted. All that because of my previous meal.

On Shmimi Atzeres night I went to Terry. I was talking all the time.

Than for Lunch I went again to the English influencial guy. We davened micha after the first course - for a reason. We got into singing and we ended up dancing. It was amazing! I don’t remember leaving his house.

Simchas Torah evening somebody woke me up in the middle of Maariv so I missed part of hakafos. Later I was really missed it.

I was crazy. Both during hakafos and my meal at Ze’evie. I had so much energy! I appointed myself to introduce everybody and so once I was, you know, appointed I had to do it, and with details. Somebody later told me that he never saw somebody talking so much.

Shachris and morning hakafos were weak but we parcialy made it up with Mussaf, which. was crazy as we singed everything there was to sing, sometimes for few minutes.

Some yeshivah underminers were davening at Netzach. By the meal I asked them ‘Why? The the yeshivah davening was so cool?’ and one of them answered ‘That’s the problem.’.

In conclusion it was my best Sukkos ever. It was wery intense. I reached levels of happiness which I never did. I became aware of few things. That people like me and not only from my generation but also generation higher. That I can be funny in different ways than I thought. I can addjust to people (allways in my way though). I can be crazy and extroverted. It was a great time.

The End.

Intense Sukkos no. 1

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First of all I myself was around for Sukkos. Not any swordsman from another realm guy. Not that he isn’t real. He definitely is. For Sukkos I myself was around though.

A lot things happened and it was a very intense time.

Sunday night I still had no meals. Outside the Gra shull I’ve met one person who invited me, than few minutes later somebody else invited me for another meal, than after shachris next day somebody invited me. Sill I needed first night meal. I knew somehow it will work out.

Around 1 pm. going back from Geulah I’ve met Ari, one crazy New Yorker. I’ve told him I have no meal that night and he called the place where he was eating and asked whether another person can come and so I came.

It was by another joke cracker from Toronto, father in law of a spiritual/emotional guy in my yeshivah who is named after a hebrew month. I really enjoyed that meal and I’ve realised that I can adjust to humor of other people. I can relate to them through that also.

Lunch I ate by very strong and charismatic man from Chicago. I even told him on Simchas Torah that he is very charismatic, when I was was in a state of craziness.

Second night, since my meal was starting late, I decided on walking the Rosh Yeshivah to his Sukkah. Than we sat down in his Sukkah and He made havdalah. When I felt it was a good time I asked him some queston regarding chinuch and business. That lead to something else and we ended up talking about types of way that a person can be charismatic. Than I felt it’s a good time to mention NLE, natural life energy theory, which says that there are 7 types of people. We talked about it for a long time! It was amazing, really. A turning point.

Than I run to this hotel for my meal. I thought I will be really late. It ended up i wasn’t. I was had very high level of adrenaline after talking to the Rosh so I was little crazy. I enjoyed man of war’s company.

Than lunch I went to somebody who used to be in my yeshivah and now is a doctor in Egeware.

End of part nr. 1.

The depth of being back in Jerusalem

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Some time after I came back I was in a Polish mode. It’s some sort of depth and maturity. One avrech (married man) said that always after I come back from Poland he sees this spark of difference in my eyes.

During summer when I was in Warsaw I had more time to think… It passed through my mind that I need to be more on top of things. I was also lonely…

There are two of me. Max and Hillel. I have two personalities. The first is more emotionally exchanging with people and mature. The second is more loud, more of a player and a hacker. Max is more polish and so deep and real. Hillel is more western and self conscious, he may also seem fake because things are more means to another goals. Changing subject..

‘Who am i?’ I’m asking myself. ‘What do i want to do?’ is bombing my conscience and not only.

On one hand I would like to learn holy Torah.

I would like to change the world also.

In any case I want to grow, change, get smarter and gain perspective. Again changing subject.

I’m glad I was young enough when I was exposed to Americans to pick up self conscience from them. They are masters of it.

Bein hazemanim came. It strengthened my feelings. I feel the world is too big for just me… much too big… and i want to change it… (both sences)

Happy new year!

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Tonight is new jewish year.

I wish all best to everybody. To get most of our lives. In spiritual, mental, intelectual and every other sence.

And don’t overdo it. Like the Rosh Yeshivah said. The life is not short run it’s a marathon.

Tikosvu v’sechosmu l’altar l’chaim ulshalom.

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Busy arrival

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Thursday morning I’ve picked up a train from Warsaw to Berlin. Before 2 p.m. I’ve poped for few hours into ‘Beis Tzion’ my previous yeshivah. Everybody there seems to be becoming a rabbi. In the evening I’ve caught a plane to Tel Aviv and arrived there after midnight. Than I’ve taken a sherut to Jerusalem and arrived at the yeshivah.

One way or the other I was in 3 countries in one day.

I’m happy to be back.

Netscape is not away

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After I came back to Poland my computer was working slowly so after some time I decided to reinstall windows. I’ve copied important things from C disk to D disk and put the xp installation disk in the dvd drive, than I’ve formatted the C disk and then I’ve run the installer.

Last years I’ve used Firefox, and before that Netscape. I’ve switched to Firefox because it was installed on the computers that I was using and it was related to Netscape. But this time when I was planing on installing a browser I said to myself ‘No, install Netscape, the older brother of Firefox whom you used so much in the past’.

Right after installing Windows from scratch I opened home.netscape.com in IE. First thing to surprise me was that it redirected me to netscape.aol.com. Even if AOL bought Netscape and it may have happened long time ago why would they change the address now? What is the change for?

Than I looked for link saying Netscape browser and I’ve found it and clinked it. I’ve scrolled the page down and there was option of downloading 4 different applications. I didn’t see Netscape over there…

I used internet for the first time when I was about 12 and I was a Virtua Fighter fan. Most probably I did it with IE. But it was just once or twice when internet was practically  unknown. It was 96 or 97. Year later I started to use the web more in a Jewish computer center. People in charge were Netscape inclined. I’ve picked up on this quickly and became a big Netscape supporter. Throughout the years  I’ve mostly used Netscape and over time my emotional connection with the program grew.

At that point (beginning of 4) Netscape was subjectively better. It was more secure and showed more of HTML, JavaScript and so on. I also preferred the way it looked and some things in IE annoyed me.

Till 1997 Netscape won having at certain point close to 90% of the market. Than the browser war started and eventually Netscape lost. Microsoft was giving IE with every Windows and integrated it as part of the system, so most people just stayed with that. Netscape didn’t change so much within the version 4 and between version 4 and 6 (5 was skipped) more than 3 years passed and at certain point IE was more functional than Netscape. Also AOL made a mistakes and at certain point added a lot of external programs to Netscape installer. All that resulted in that new people used IE and a lot of old Netscape users switched. It ended up that only hardcore users stayed with Netscape. So did I.

Announcement on the AOL website said:

Official support ended on March 1st, 2008.
Given AOL’s current business focus and the success the Mozilla Foundation has had in developing critically-acclaimed products, we feel it’s the right time to end development of Netscape branded software. Read the history page for more details about this decision.

That what it said. They don’t care that the program existed for close to 14 years, people grew up with it, changed with it and matured with it. Like me, I’ve changed completely during this time. But taking into account their business plan they don’t care. I felt sadness and injustice.

What could I do? I could install Netscape theme for my Firefox.

So I did. At last that way Nescape will stay alive. And I’ve singned two petitions.

http://www.petitiononline.com/netscape/petition.html

http://www.petitiononline.com/saveNS/petition.html

4 days of birthday

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Today is my american, polish or english birthday, I would call it “birthday according to the sun”. On shabbos, first of Av is my Jewish, moon (months) and solar (years) bithday. So I established both days and the ones in beetwen for celebration.

So it’s 4 day bithday.

Do I need Poland?

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Every time before I come to Poland I’m look forwards towards it. Poland is a place where I grew up I still have some connection with it.

There are some things in Poland that turn me off though. And there are things that Poland is missing, meaning there are things that actively disturb me and things that just are not there.

Belonging to the first group are polish low self esteem voices. It’s actualy a very serious thing because it makes me listening to a lot of people just annoying.

Belonging to the second is lack of young, cool people with energy, especially Americans like there are in my yeshivah.

Worth mentioning that my whole social life is very limited. I could simplify the last to points as being lonely.

So even though I need to pop in to poland from time to time i know it’s not a place for me.

Intensity of the flight and arrival in Warsaw.

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Monday night I left Jerusalem for the airport. Except for few things (security guy was starting to get suspicious after I wasn’t sure how to answer him some questions and than I’ve forgot my suitcase when waiting by the Lufthansa office, later to find it, and that another member of airport personnel was shouting at me when I was the last person to enter the plane - when he got upset he asked me whether I come late to the synagogue, I preferred not to answer :)) everything went smooth and after 3 hours 40 minutes flight I arrived at Frideric Chopin airport. At ‘home’ I’ve arrived about 10 o’clock in the morning.

Except of one other person the flight was completely not religious made of both Polish and Israelis. Interesting that a lot of Polish fly to Israel and vice versa. I’ve overheard two Israelis talking and one was explaining to the other that he was buying some property near Warsaw.

Sometimes during my journeys I meet somebody whom I know. Last year I’ve meet next building neighbor of my previous flat. He works at the Jewish Theater and he came to the Holy Land for the Bar Mitzvah of his nephew. I’ve than realized that Jews sometimes may live in such a close proximity, even though there is so little of them in Poland.

I left the plane through the new terminal. The arrival terminal has a year or so but the departure terminal is really fresh. It looks good but but plain and not impressing, more of late 20th century style than 21th. They should have designed it better, airport makes the first impression of the country.

Psyhoanalisis of polish people comming.

Purim for Max

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So now it’s Max. Two posts before was Hillel’s purim store. Let me tell you mine. It describes time when Hillel wasn’t around in this world and I was.So, let’s begin.
Friday morning I went to Zichron Moshe for Shachris and Megillah reading.
Later on Friday we exchanged with Hillel and I came back just before Shabbos, thinking that I myself need to be here for that day.
So I’ve got ready for Shabbos and I was walking to Degel (place where the Yeshivah davens on in Shabbos). Just in front of me two yeshivah guys passed by and said that there will be Kabbolas Shabbos in the Cheder Ochel. ‘What was happening?’ i thought. There was yeshivah minyan in Degel, why was there need for another one. With this questions in mind I went on.
For continuation look at the next post. The password is MoMo’s socond hebrew name with a big first letter.